A few years ago, I was reading through the book of Numbers, which in Hebrew it is referred to as "in the wilderness". Prior to reading this a friend advised me that I was having a wilderness experience in my own life. It took me a while to process because I was not sure what I was supposed to be doing in this season. Until God showed me, I was in a place of preparation. He wanted to give me instruction on how to live when I entered my own promised land. He started revealing things about me that I needed to change, and He showed me things that had to be removed, like my old views of myself, Him, and my calling. Instead of wandering, God was showing me how to be still and stop thinking I can figure it out on my own, instead I needed to follow His leadings. One of the things he revealed was…

Pain changes us. Often hard to focus on anything else, we sometimes become consumed with anger while other times we become numb. Either way, we are continuing to focus on the hurt, which only inflicts greater pain that keeps us stuck in spiritual warfare. Sometimes we are blessed to find purpose in pain. Whether immediate or delayed, choosing instead to focus on the lesson affords us the gift of growth and draws us closer to God.

Little girls often look to their fathers for value and love. For many, entrusting one’s heart in this way is a beautiful daily reminder of worth that propels us forward in life and lends a hand in growing up to be strong, confident women secure in who we are and what we mean to this world.

“As I said, I have friends, close friends, and family that have been some of my biggest supporters and source of counsel when I need them. As I look around the Atlanta area, though, my friends are few and far between here. And as I plan for my future self, I’ve found that my goals have a lot to do with the fact that I have to step out of my reclusive world and engage with those around me in a way that connects who I am with whom I want to be. I need to be inspired by others; questioned by others; welcomed by others; loved by others; in communicating and collaborating with others. More than that though, I need to offer the space for others to get these things from me. This, I think, is what I should be incorporating into my interactions in the next year- no, three years - to come.

So, it’s up to me! I need to establish a welcoming environment for the me I strive to be, never forgetting the progress I’ve made thus far and remembering to stay under Him and His vision for me. At the end of the day, it’s pretty simple: friends will only come to my birthday party if

a) I have friends and

b) I have a birthday party.

With that, I know that the only way to find intimacy and friendship with others is through genuine fellowship.”

Is there anyone out there that hates olives as much as I do? Ugh! I find them to be so distasteful and unappealing as well. And, I absolutely hate when I bite into one by accident. I’m that person that usually doesn’t fuss when my server doesn’t get my order to my exact specifications. I can live with it and go on, especially if I am starving. But if I forget to mention to remove the olives or the server forgets that one important detail, then hands down, we’ve got to fix this error immediately! There are no exceptions to this rule for this girl right here! But if I am honest with you, once I found out the story behind the olives, I learned to admire them, even from a distance. Especially since, I actually love the end product - olive oil. I won’t eat the olives, but I absolutely love the oil that it produces. This tiny little fruit produces such a powerful punch and what it endures to produce its unique oil needs to be noted.

Olive trees and the abundance of oil they produce were very significant in the lives of the people of the Bible. It was a leading agricultural product, an important part of their diet, and part of their religious practices.

The most common use of olives and the oil they produced was the source of light for the people-lamp stands and in the temple, the light of this flame symbolized God's presence.

Do you know that your life right now can be compared to that of an olive?

But do you know what an olive has to go through before it produces oil?

Why have I become accustomed to settle?

Why in my own eyes my best is not good enough?

Why don't I believe they will love me if I was just me... standing on my beliefs?

Thought I had a healthy self-esteem, but do I really?

My picker is off definitely? Princess? Or more like a slave?

Yes, a slave to whatever love I can grab.

Not confident, I will receive the Prince I am destined to have.

Silent tears at night wondering what went wrong. Why is my life like another sad love song?

Is true love in my grasp or is it just a fable? Or is it reserved for those who can bring material wealth to the table?

It's amazing how GOD can change your life and show you what it used to be like in glimpses. Oftentimes, I like to look around at all the things that I have and all the ways that I have grown spiritually and bask in the aww moments. As I sit here in a room dimmed with night lights on, candles lit, and a teardrop in my eye, I can't help but be full of gratitude that I am experiencing this very moment. This moment of silence. Have you ever just sat in silence and noticed that you can actually hear your own heartbeat? Yes, it's that very moment of stillness that GOD will show up. A lot of us are always caught up in the moment that we don't give time for GOD to speak to us; to refuel us for the demands of life.

We wake up, turn to our phones, emails, social media, etc… Now the mind is running on the to-do list, the bills that are due that you probably can't afford so you are wondering how you will pay them. Now the kids are up, the house is noisy and the day goes on. Do you notice at this point it's only 7:30 am and you're already exhausted? You felt like you ran a marathon and you’re ready for coffee cup number 2. Yeah, that was me for a very very long time. The worst part is that it becomes a normal routine so we dismiss the aches and pains in our bodies that are telling us something is wrong. The headaches that are more frequent because the stress has taken over. You see, life has its twists and turns. We have to learn to manipulate our day and not let our day manipulate us. What I mean is we know what our daily routine is. We know what we have to do and how we feel daily so why don't we prepare ourselves for it? Some of you will say, “I don't know how” and I get that completely because I didn't grow up knowing how either. I always responded with “I don't know how”, but when do the excuses stop? For me, they stopped when I said “yes” to living my life for Christ.

I used to look in the mirror and fixate on my imperfections but now I know that I am beautifully made in the image of God. What words will you choose to tell yourself when you look in the mirror?

I used to refer to myself as a victim in my story but now I have cast myself in a new role as the victor. What words will you choose to tell yourself about the story you are living?

In times of anxiety and stress, I used to focus only on my weaknesses, now I remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. What words will you choose to tell yourself when anxiety and stress are flowing in your veins?

After witnessing my husband struggle with his worth the night before, I taped a note to his side of the bathroom mirror so that he could embrace the new day confident in the gift that he is to those who know and love him. What words will you choose to tell others when they are at odds with themselves?

An argument was on the horizon and instead of getting in the ring, I respectfully asked for my would-be opponent’s hands and began to pray for us. What words will you choose to tell others when they are at odds with us?

Hello Beautiful. Yes, YOU. Don’t get distracted and not stop to really READ. You are on Chosen Pieces for a reason my dear… Pssst God knew and yep, he planned it. So just listen with your minds, see through your hearts and sing with your spirits. LET’S GO!!!!!

I am writing this for you. All of you. The things you love most about yourself and the things you wish you could change. I’m writing to tell you that you are all that you need to be and not what the world tells you, you should be. Embrace yourself at this moment. Breathe at this moment. Be free at this moment. Relax. Celebrate yourself at this moment. Pray at this moment to receive what God gave me to deliver.

I’ve been thinking a lot. As per usual. I have been able to rest in my thoughts and as always it opens my eyes. This time it opened my eyes to something I feel is misused from time to time. I feel that we don’t feel as good as we should about this topic. I feel when we do feel good it can be shown in not such pretty ways. So, what am I talking about?

BEAUTY.